somethings, might not need the zoom.
maybe, leaving it as current,
might be the best solution.
all these are just dependency
the feeling of used to having me there
i know you had been trying hard.
but, if i insist,
things will be much simpler
in some time.

okay.
on a lighter note,
woooooooooooooooooooooooooo
im going to get a treat!
hehe,
not a bet or anything
from my dear charmaine, and choonkeong
double C!
hahahahaha!

to think that
i felt guilty.
to think that
i regretted bringing the matter up the surface.
to think that
i brought you down.
to think that
i hoped for things to revert back to normal.

okay.
i am foolish enough to think that way.
apparently, its only my assumptions.

even so,
i didnt mean that message as an apology.
it wasn't meant to be anyway.
i dont feel a need to apologise.
it was meant to be a choice i've made,
to choose to put every thing behind.

but i feel so not appreciated.
well,
if things are to go on this way,
i dont mind.
and i wont care.
i took a step front.
but you forced me to retreat back home.

okay. whatever.
maybe its right to put everything behind.
i mean, everything.

there is a need to talk.
it really shocked me
you didnt insist on an answer this time.
i guess,
maybe its really cause you needed time.
maybe its cause you didnt understood whats going on.
maybe, you didnt even realise something was very wrong.

but in a way i wished you had.
wished you had insisted.
at least,
things wouldn't remain like that.
this is just so...
weird.

rosalindtan,

DON'T WORRY;
STAY HAPPY! :)

cancer--(22 june -22 july)

Cancer is a Cardinal water sign, ruled by the moon. As the fourth sign of the zodiac, the Cancer individual is a deeply emotional person inside, but is smooth and confident on the outside. Their first love is of home and family and they are nurturing and caring in the family setting, creating a cozy, comfortable, safe existence behind the doors of their own home.

Although many Cancer personalities make a real mark on the world, they are emotionally never far from home and hearth. Home and family give the Cancerian strength and stability, and the home is the safe "shell" that the Cancer individual knows he can retreat to after a long, stressful day. Cancer is strongly rooted and often thinks of the past, holding onto mementos and thinking about his childhood. Emotions run deep in the Cancer individual, and even small slights resonate down to his very core. When hurt or disappointed, Cancer will retreat completely into his shell and become unreachable for a period of time. Cancer is generous and kind to others, but will cautiously wait when he confronts a problem to make sure that he doesn't waste valuable resources. In the end, he will come through and help generously if no other option presents itself. Though possessing a good sense of humor and loving a good joke, the Cancer personality will often become sulky, moody, and irritable for no reason apparent to anyone else. This is just a manifestation of those waters that run so deep in the Cancer individual. Cancer weighs every move carefully, almost never doing things spontaneously, and as a result, he is usually successful in his endeavors. When he fails, he will brood about it for a long time, and will almost never just shrug it off and try again.

For those with a cancer child, you have a loving kid with a long memory, who never forgets an emotional event. Cancer children are well-attuned to their surroundings, almost from birth, and can detect any unsettled atmosphere in the home, making it important to keep home life as stable and serene as possible. Anything associated with well-being, such as food and comfortable surroundings are extremely important to the Cancer child, and if they don't like something such as carrots or a certain set of sheets, remove them and don't attempt to present them to the child again any time soon. This child's reasoning for their dislike, however absurd it seems to you, is coming from a deep, emotional place and you are unlikely to change their minds or make matters better by forcing things on them. Cancer kids are deeply attached to their parents, whether the parent is good or bad, and will be affected emotionally for life by the actions of their parents. Once the Cancer child becomes older, he will likely hoard toys, candy, or whatever else appeals to him, often carefully preserving his trophies in their original packaging. A room with a lot of open shelf space would suit a Cancer child well. Going to school at first will be fairly traumatic for a Cancer child, but with a strong, loving home to return to every day, he will get over this in fairly quick order and become a compassionate and caring friend for his school mates.

Adults under the Cancer sign will be dedicated workers, and will do well at keeping their work and home lives separated. If you have a co-worker with an office full of family photos, you can be sure you are working with a Cancer individual. Cancers do best in jobs where they can nurture others. They have the imagination and intuition to feel what others are feeling and therefore make good human resource employees, trainers, or medical personnel. They are usually not ecstatic about change, so a stable job environment is a positive for Cancer. All in all, the Cancer individual will provide you with a strong, diligent, stable worker who empathizes with co-workers and does a good job with his assigned tasks.

If you have found a romantic partner in a Cancer, you have a caring, insightful, and sentimental partner indeed. Although your Cancer will demand complete honesty and fidelity from you, be aware that it is not above him to dally once in a while himself. Rest assured, though, his real roots are with those to whom he has made a commitment. Cancerians are the most nurturing sign in the zodiac, with a deep-seated need to care for others, and as such will make an excellent caretaker of both the home and the children. Some might find the Cancerian's lavish attention a bit smothering, however, and if Cancer does not feel their efforts are appreciated, they will fall into a deep funk that may be quite hard to reverse. Many find Cancer individuals difficult to understand, as their emotions sometimes overrule their more sensible side. In order to have a successful relationship with a Cancer, one must choose to accept mood swings and the occasional need that their Cancer partner has to withdraw completely at times. Your Cancer partner equates money with security, and along with providing a comfortable home, will also likely see to it that there is a comfortable nest egg in reserve too.

The best matches for Cancer for sure are Scorpio and Pisces. but Taurus, Leo, Gemini, and Virgo might work for some individuals. It will likely be tough going for Aries, Libra, Capricorn, or another Cancer.

Cancer in any relationship is nurturing and caring, but with deep mood swings and a sharp tongue when provoked. Cancer seeks out others who are stable and loyal, and who want to focus on home and family. The Cancer individual will be cautious with money and will likely have some cash stashed away for a rainy day. He will also be a collector of something , maybe antiques because of his emotional ties to the past, but possibly something such as coins or model cars or shot glasses. Your Cancer friend will help you if you are in need, but will almost always wait until the last minute to do so, after waiting for you to exhaust all other possibilities. Just remember, the by-words for Cancer are "I feel," so be careful to emit good vibes around your Cancerian friend and you will be richly rewarded!

if only i could let everything out.
if only i could let everything go.
if only i could be so xiao sa.
and move on from it.
turning a blind eye to whatever that would happen.
and just laugh my way through.

then i wouldn't be rosalindtan.

well, things go on even its not your way.
maybe, the case is that,
im worrying too much.
for you.
although the sense was strong,
what i could do is only hoping that
all these are not going to happen.

i bet you dont understand what exactly im thinking.
even after so much things said.
in actual fact,
im more bothered about the first then second issue.
but the irony is,
its the one which won't affect me.

but,
im afraid that you'd drop into it
and have a hard time coming back up.
but i dont like it when i feel like im being some busybody.
i hoped to wake you up;
rather than pulling you back up in the future.
but all these efforts seemed to be pointless.

maybe,
its just my point of view bah.
i dont want to give up.
for my friend.
on my friend.

but, my dear friend,
im starting to think
why not just...
let it go,
let it be.

RAHHHHHHHH
this is just so frustrating!
on and off
on and off.
i'm forcing myself to take things in a much simpler way.

and,
PI is just adding to my miserable life.
getting on my nerves.

today's the innova flag day.
for some community service centre;
like class outing liddat eh.
almost whole class ended up at orchard together.
we had a nice time
but,
i think the organisation people attitude suck.
well, and we ended our day having an ice-cream treat!
that reminded me
peijun still owe us a treat!
ahhhhh.



ohoh.
i love my essay.

HAH,
now, i've really done what i could.
as a friend,
as a buddy.
and, i'm going to stand by what i've said.
washing my hands off.
standing at a neutral position.
only lending my ears.
when i'm needed.

i'll pray for yirong;
for things to go smoothly tmr with her first ever rifle comp.
i'll pray for you.
hoping that things aren't as bad as i perceived.

the good old days.

awwww...

i finally found people to share my view!
ahaha!!
verbal diarrhoea.
if i don't say,
sooner or later,
ill just blurb out everything,
without going through thinking.
LOL

well,
life's good,
but slackening down.
not bad eh,
still realised.
hmmmmmmm..


somethings are simply out of my control.